Well, to continue with my "ship about to sail" analogy, my guy has decided that he will follow me on a jet ski and if we begin to have common interests again, he'll jump aboard my ship. If we don't have anything in common he will take off to other parts of the world.

It's funny how everything has changed since my book has been published. Strangers are all excited to meet me and become my friend. I have a lot of great friends now, people who are encouraging me and spreading the word about my book. Then there's my family... como si nada. I have a cousin who came out to my Artwalk events a couple times. Other than that, I don't hear from anyone. My guy is feeling like he doesn't have anything in common with me anymore. He has no interest in my book, aside from the occasional "oh, that's nice" comment. He likes to hang around the house all day and he said that since I want to travel, it's not going to be a real relationship. He wants me to stay around home and just work 9-5.

Am I selfish for wanting to succeed? My dream has come true and now the people closest to me want me to quit. My kids are excited and want to move around the country, but aside from them, everyone else wants me to keep working a fulltime job and just stay in town.

I can't promote my book from home. I'm trying so hard. I'm blogging and emailing and posting... There's only so much I can do on the computer. I need to get out there, have my name out in public, meet people, hand out flyers, something!

My ex-mother in law was trying to scare me last night. She says the recession is coming and I'll be homeless if I quit my job. I tried to explain that I wouldn't quit without having a backup plan, but she wants me to move to her place in San Francisco. I told her I might, next year - I can promote in the city while I can. But the main point was that she doesn't think i can make it either.

Am I the only one who has faith in me? LOL

If I try and it doesn't work out, then I can go back to working 9-5. If I don't try... The only way I can be sure to fail is if I don't try.

I'm waiting until December to decide on what I'm doing. I'm not throwing everything away just yet. In the meantime, I will continue to work my day job and write and promote 24/7. It's the only thing I can do. Oh, and pray. I can pray.